Episode 16 - Being in d Present, Living in d Past

day started off slow,
not busy at all..
used almost my whole morning waiting..
everything was going slow..
easy going, nth much..

till about 3pm..
my samples were all run..
and results started to come up..
and i had 6 samples altogether..
they look something like this via a computer software
this software is called Decyder..


so,
my job was to scan all those spots..
comparing among the 6 samples..
to see which spots are absent and present
mainly focusing on peptides that are present..

from 3pm..
began analyzing the spots..
till about 5.30pm..only had 1 sample done..

took a break and went to Subway for dinner..
together with Wayne, WeiFun and Oiyin..
after dinner..
continued with my work on d spots..

till now.. 11pm..
i only managed to finish doing 3 samples..
getting tired..
think i'll stop analyzing it here..
continue it tomorrow..

my concept of improving oneself is firstly by self realization,

its tru self realization that u really learn..
u truly feel wad ur mistakes are..
and tru that, u willingly change for the better..

but y all this while..
i've been trying to change..
something that i know i shud change..
but actions are easier said that done..
for as long as i can remember..
since d day i said i would change this mistake of mine..
till today..i still couldnt..why?? why is it so hard??
is it coz of attention, pride? both i think i dun need..
to me, i dun let my pride stand in my way..
and i dun want attention..

susah ni~~
juz today,
i again kinda lost my temper..
although i didnt show,
but i'm sure they could sense it..
i lost it..totally lost it..
for no good reason at all..

luckily i am in d lab..
i could be alone..and not have to fake a smile..
Steph's advice is always on my mind..
d only thing that i could use to help ease my "anger"
aiyo..type d word anger also i angry at myself edi..
shit man~~
y do i lose it...fuck man..

Happy-Go-Lucky

sometimes..
i really feel i have reach a dead end where i cannot help myself..
i know its not right to turn to You now..
only when i am in need..
i have decided to turn to You Lord for guidance..
i pray that you could show me d right path to take..
lead me, guide me and Walk with me..
everyday in my life..
it is now that i need You more than any other time..
I know that You have never left me..
it is me who have departed far from You..
i ask for Your forgiveness..
and i confess all my sins..
In Your Holy Name i Pray,
Amen

Episode 15 - Fatigue

late night,

early morning,

results in..

a day like this..

SLEEPY !!

slept at around 4am last night..

*thought of keeping company*

but apprently,

i think i slept d earliest..

Lolz..

woke up today at 10am..

Abigail was already there..making breakfast..

quickly went to wash up..

hoping to lend her a helping hand..

only to know..d breakfast was for d house..

*i must have looked like i was hungry* =.=

i call this.. Yin Yong Sandwich..

Half Egg Mayo Half Cheesy Ham

sounds catchy ey~ Lol

Sent Abi to work at around 10.30am..

manage to talk abit..

*hope could talk more like we did*

she had to fake sick..

for not going to work yesterday..

slight fever and sore throat..

after sending her to work..

showered, and had my wonderful breakie..

Yin Yong Sandwich with Choc Milk..Yum~~

breakfast..most important meal of d day..

eating breakie while watching some nba vids..

getting into the moment of basketball..

*playing bball at 12noon*

went for bball...

only 4 of us turned out..

Sim, Andrew, ZhenJie and I (aaron)..

so had a playoff series of 7 games..7 points each

Faulkner Cres (Sim & Aaron) vs JB Zhai (Andrew & Zhen Jie)..

Sim and Aaron were suffering from fatigue of previous games..

sore legs and wrists..

which may affect their game and overall performace..

but..

both are used to playing tru pain and injuries

Faulkner Cres manage to hold a 2-0 series lead..

until andrew of JB Zhai exploded for a career high in scoring..

which tied d series of 2-2..

d score was tied 6-6..andrew went up for a pull-up jumper..

Sim manage to reject d shot, which gave the team d W

Faulkner Cres manage to regain d lead..3-2..

which would then again be tied at 3 a piece..

d series would turn into a final game 7..

with sheer determination,

Sim and Aaron pull a big lead in d opening of d game..

4-0..

which would eventually end in 7-2..

Lolz..

we went home at around 3pm..

showered and had some snacks..

together with Steph and Abi..

fries, wedges and nuggets..

something to keep ur tummies full till dinner..

chit chat-ed for abit..

then i started to turn sleepy..

went in d room..layed abit..fell alseep..

as planned...Lolz

woke up at around 7pm..

again, felt d urge to eat..

so called wayne, weifun and oiyin for dinner..

KFC it was..

after dinner,

came home and continued helping Haeyoung with her essay..

editing bits and pieces..

Steph brought along my sexy glass again..

this time filled with longan..

Lo Han Guo..

another refreshing drink..

till now..juz finished..

ps: ZhenJie..pay my medical fees..keep injuring me dunno for wad~~~

later i break ur ankle again ah~~!~!~!~! Lolz..

Episode 14 - Just Trying

woke up for breakfast today..
havent had a breakie for a long long time..
so joined Weifun, OiYin andChinLing for breakie..
At Goldberg..

Had a Big Brekfast..
filled with Eggs, mushrooms, toasts and sausages..
ans I was stuffed to d max..
i was so stuffed tat it was d first time,
i wanted to go toilet right after eating..
hehehee..
as if it was filled to d brim..lolz..
*will try to get pics in a later post*

reached home around noon time..
slacked d whole day..
come to think of it..
i do not know how i manage to pass time today..
noon till 6pm..

i went for an our of bballin' at 6pm..
with WeiMan, Sim and ZhenJie...
played abit..as court was fully booked..
darn it!

after bballin'
went to woolies..
WM and HY wanted to get some groceries..
came home around 9pm..

prepared dinner..
instant noodles - vegetarian style..
well, maybe a piece or 2 of wicked wings..hehehe
they're juz so irresistable..

and also..
i finially finish my Prison Break.
well maybe not d whole thing..
but of wad i have..
am yet to try to get my hands on d rest of it..Lolz

and also,
i have confirmed my place with the uni games..
m still tryingt to get hold of d person in charge..
so could get things a lil more confirmation..
its in July,
cant wait for it..
cant wait to see what its like..
really gonna be an eye opener !!

3am..

am still here..trying to be awake as much as i can..

wanna keep u company..

but somehow..

i dont know how to do it..

all i'm doing is just by staying awake as much i can..

hopefully..u'll feel not alone..

*but others are also awake too..so..doesnt matter much ey?*

trying..

and juz let time do its thing..

really feel so insignificant ler..
sien dao~~Lol..
Happy-Go-Lucky..
always remind myself..
this is who i am..
and who i will be..^^

Episode 13 - Fantabulous

day at the lab was short today..

think i spent about 1 1/2 hours only..

had to leave d samples overnight..

so..get to go home early..


reached home around 11.30am..

promised Sim and others for bball...

left for bball at 12 noon...

would rate today's performance.. 8/10? 9/10?

hehehe..


had a pretty good game today..
was on my form..

able to make some shots..

so..literally shot till my wrist got sore..




we played for 4 hours..

got home by 4pm..


reached home..
showered and cooked pasta..

over-estimate AGAIN..

this time..REALLY OVER-ESTIMATE..

couldnt even finish half of the portion..

so..had to keep them..


after awhile..
promised Steph that i'd join them for dinner too..

another bowl of rice..

but only managed to finish half of it..

d food was great..

but i could stuff anymore in..


*sorry ah steph..toooo full la...hehehe..next time?*


about 6pm..OiYin called..

and we all went to Woolies..

michz, WeiFun and Oiyin..
they did a lil bit of grocery shopping..

michz got herself a window shield..

sort of like a curtain..


after groceries,

WeiFun and Oiyin hadnt had their dinner

so...

I OFFERED THEM MY PASTA..

WuuHoo~~

they managed to get most of it done..

*still left bit in d fridge now..*


after tat..

went for Angels and Demons..

a follow up Da Vinci Code..


kinda nice..but..

as expected..confusing..

hehehehe

would probably need to read d book..

which i am planning to get..hehehe


so after d movies..

i m home..

blogging..


1 thing i wanna share..

d tryout for the Uni team..

i got in !!! WuuHoo~~

got d email yesterday..

was estatic!! couldnt believe me eyes...hehehe
got this email for the d guy who did d scouting..

so..

i m planning to go along with this trip to Bathrust..ehehe..

may cost abit..but..

i think its worth d experience..Lolz

we'll see how it go..

*fingers crossed*

Episode 12 - Anxious & Nervous

Day started out early..
woke up at 8am..

presentations started at 9am..
it was divided into 4 sessions..4 presenters each..
I..was in the last session..but d 1st presenter..
dunno shud be happy or wad..

listen to every presentations..
anxiously waiting for my turn to come..

wasnt really nervous throughout d whole morning..
juz relaxing, chilling out in d room..
*it was/is still freaking cold today*

when it came to d 3rd session..
my nerves started to get d best of me..
i was freezzing, shiverring,...
i didnt know i was nervous ..
or did d room juz turn cold a notch..

so d 4th session began..
"this session is filled with exciting topics, being presented by interesting students.."
"and 1st up is Aaron Shak..*applauds*"

i went up..
greeted..
and blasted away..
making sure i had pronouce every word correctly..
not stutter..
and not show that i was nervous..
*dont think i did a good job*

i was nervous, i did stutter on a couple of words..
but..
everyone seemed to understand...

when i was done with d presentation,
d floor was open for questions..
few questions came bombarded my way..

"why, what, how, when?"
WALAU~~
there was this 1 reviewer,
it wasnt her turn to be reviewing..
but she was there..
i came to know..she was d one who reviewed by essay..
and had left comments.. >.<

she was there for my speech..
and also fired d most questions..
*i think she juz wanted to wait for my presentation*
she was like..
smiling while asking..
as if she was having a good time..

but,
i did manage to answer the questions thrown my way..
how well i answered them..i m not sure..hehehe

met up with my supervisor (he was there too)
asked him how did i do..
he said.."i think u did well, probably abit of nerves..but..u did good.."
i was..
i didnt know what i felt..
didnt expect him to give such comments..
well..am not complaining now..Lolz..

after that..went home..
changed and went to Woolies..
met up with Sim, Steph and Abi there..
did ALOT of grocery shopping..
spent like AUD210..Lolz..
*stacking up food for draught i think*
hehehe..

after groceries..
drove to get some Dominoes..
bought 7 pizzas..to be shared..hehehe..
a hell of a meal..
i was starving d whole day..
finally..get to fill this empty well..hahaha..
WeiFun, OiYin and Michelle joined too..

chit chatted for a bit..
and after they left..
i am here to update..
tired..been listening to presentations for d whole day..
mentally expired..

nights~

Episode 11 - Mum

This here goes out to all the mums in the world..mine in particular..





God made a wonderful mother,
A mother who never grows old;

*still sandboarding at her age !!!*



He made her smile of the sunshine,
And He moulded her heart of pure gold;
In her eyes He placed bright shining stars,
In her cheeks fair roses you see;
God made a wonderful mother,
And He gave that dear mother to me.




The reason God created Mothers is because :

God could not be everywhere and therefore He made mothers.

*my mum was there, when i was on a desert, well sort of*

When growing up,

I faced with all kinds of problems,

getting into fights,*occasionally*

detention *definitely*

Results *=x*

But,

Mum you were there through everything,

Through the good and bad,

Thank you for being there,

And sorry for the times I made you mad.

although there were times i was mad at you,

and you were also mad at me,

but i know,

The heart of a mother is a deep abyss at the bottom of which I will always find forgiveness

*should forgive me ba...i graduated eh..Lolz~*

And now,

i'm far away,

from you and family,

missing u so badly,

every passing day,

Another year gone by,

And I still miss you so,

love remains with me,

Everywhere I go.

And all I want to say,
amongst all these words i wrote,
is that,




To the world you might be one person, but to one person you might be the world





although now u know how much i love you,
how much i miss and care,
didnt manage to get u anything,
i have a good reason ok..*hehehe*





No gift to your mother can ever equal her gift to you - life




so i did not manage to get you something..it can never equal what u have given me..



MUACKS~~


Happy Mother's Day

-I Love You-
XOXOXO

Episode 10 - D Ol' Me

another early day,
another day of lab,
but half day~~!! hehee

did a half day of lab work,
practiced my presentation,
and off to bball...
rushed like mad-man..
everything was packed so tightly..
i mean d timing of everything..

played few games of bball..
Sim, WM, I and some Thai guy..
Thai guy with some funny crazy moves..
to me..
he thinks he's cool and all..
But
he's not la..super funny la..
Lan Yao Yeng..Lolz

after bball..
Sim said have dinner together..
so didnt want to stuff maself..
had 2 oranges..

dinner at 6pm..early dinner~~
korean curry
chicken, carrot, cauliflower, onions, long beans, potatoes..
stuffed~~

after dinner..
Steph, Abigail and Sim...planned to go to d city..
for Milkshake.. @ Goldberg..
changed and waited for bus..

reached Goldberg..
order Milkshakes..
Sticky Date Pudding..
Apple & Blueberry Crumble..
Delicious~

*no pics..forogt to take..too irresistible to wait*

chit chat-ed for a couple of hours @ Goldberg..
WM came pick us up..at 11+pm..
head home..
dead tired..

calling it a night here...
Nights

d reason we went out for Goldberg was that
i was kinda down..and everyone wanted to cheer me up..
thanks to all - Sim, Steph and Abigail.. Thank You !
i really felt alot better and..somehow..got some answers too..
hehehe..
hope we could go for unexpected outings more often..
really enjoy ur company..
-xoxo-

so, decided edi..
trying to get back to ma old self..
keeping maself bz..and not think too much
i want my Happy-Go-Lucky self back !!
and from there..see how things go..
not quitting juz yet..